Don't be angry! I could not help doing it, so many things brought you into my mind.

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This evening I fell in with an acquaintance, and when I saw how happy he was with his wife and family welcoming him home, though with only one-tenth of my income and chances, and thought what might have been in my case, it fairly broke down my discretion, and off I came here.

Now I am here I feel that I am wrong to some extent.