55/69 One must believe in something! It came to me in a flash, when Christina was five years old. She was a very ugly baby; for the first two years I could hardly bear to look at her, and I used to spoil my own looks with crying about her. She had an Italian nurse who was very fond of her and insisted that she would grow up pretty. I could n't believe her; I used to contradict her, and we were forever squabbling. I was just a little silly in those days--surely I may say it now--and I was very fond of being amused. |