I'll tell you a secret.

I've insured my life very high in favour of my little sister whom I ruined, and who is out as a governess.

If I don't pay up to the last, you see, or if I commit suicide, she'll lose the money.

I pay very high, I assure you.
On one occasion not a year ago, I played for the money to pay the premium only two nights before it would have been too late.

There was touch and go for you.