"O, how I _did_ love that man! How I love him now,--and always shall, while I breathe! He was so beautiful, so high, so noble! He put me into a beautiful house, with servants, horses, and carriages, and furniture, and dresses.

Everything that money could buy, he gave me; but I didn't set any value on all that,--I only cared for him.

I loved him better than my God and my own soul, and, if I tried, I couldn't do any other way from what he wanted me to.
"I wanted only one thing--I did want him to _marry_ me.

I thought, if he loved me as he said he did, and if I was what he seemed to think I was, he would be willing to marry me and set me free.

But he convinced me that it would be impossible; and he told me that, if we were only faithful to each other, it was marriage before God.