He had a magnetic influence over me as I told you.

Perhaps I might get a little under it again if he were to appear suddenly without his wife--it turns me sick to think of a married man having a magnetic influence over me....

Even if there was no wife--now.

So, when you've idealised a person and can't idealise him any more: C'EST FINI.

There's nothing but a ghost to come and make you uncomfortable sometimes--and that CAN'T last....