So, all the while, you see," she went on with her eyes on him, "it was a question for me if I should be able to manage it in time.

If I couldn't have come now I probably shouldn't have come at all--perhaps even ever.

Now that I'm here I shall stay, but there were moments, over there, when I despaired.

It wasn't easy--there were reasons; but it was either this or nothing.

So I didn't struggle, you see, in vain.