It is not so with you--you understand.

Dear, light of womanhood, I speak the truth now.

I have been evil in my day I admit it--evil because I was in the midst of evil.

I betrayed because I was betrayed; I slew, else I should have been slain.

We have had dark days in England, privy conspiracy and rebellion; and I have had to thread my way through dreadful courses by a thousand blind paths.