I loathed it.

I loathed still more deceiving you.
"I won and won and won.

I thought I was delivered.

I was almost happy again.

Some day I meant to tell you--when it was all over.
"Then I began to lose horribly.Thousands.It ran up to twenty thousand.
I did not betray myself, and the girls thought I had money of my own and could pay my losses quite easily.