But he could tell me nothing of those early preachings of our revered founder in Moorfields, which would have been more pleasant to me than all this vain babble about drolls and jesters, gingerbread bakers and showmen.
"When we had walked the round of the place, and it was time to take coach for our lodging at Chelsea--he having brought me thus far to see St.Paul's and the prison of Newgate, the Mint and Tower--the gloomy fit came on him again, and all that evening he was dull and sorrowful, though I read aloud to him from the printed sermons of a rising member of our community.

So you will see, honour'd sir, how difficult it is for these children of Satan to withdraw themselves from that master they have once served; since at the sober age of fifty-three yeares my husband's weak heart yet yearns after profligate faires and foolish gardens lighted by color'd lampes.
"And now no more, reverend friend, my paper being gone and it being full time to reflect that y'r patience must be gone also.

Service to Mrs.Goodge.I have no more room but to assure you that y'r gayeties of this foolish and erring citty have no power to withdraw y'r heart of her whose chief privilege it is to subscribe herself, "Your humble follower and servant." "Rebecca Haygarth." To my mind there seems just a shadowy hint of some bygone romance in this letter.

Why did the dingy house in John-street bring the tears into Matthew's eyes?
and why did the memory of Vauxhall and Bartholomew fair seem so sweet to him?
And then that sighing and groaning and dolefulness of visage whenever the thought of the past came back to him?
What did it all mean, I wonder?
Was it only his vanished youth, which poor, sobered, converted, Wesleyanised Matthew regretted?
or were there pensive memories of something even sweeter than youth associated with the coloured lamps of Vauxhall and the dinginess of Clerkenwell?
Who shall sound the heart of a man who lived a hundred years ago?
and where is the fathom-line which shall plumb its mysteries?
I should need a stack of old letters before I could arrive at the secret of that man's life.
The two other letters, which I have selected after some deliberation, relate to the last few weeks of Matthew's existence; and in these again I fancy I see the trace of some domestic mystery, some sorrowful secret which this sober citizen kept hidden from his wife, but which he was on several occasions half inclined to reveal to her.
Perhaps if the lady's piety--which seems to have been thoroughly sincere and praiseworthy, by the bye--had been a little less cold and pragmatical in its mode of expression, poor Matthew might have taken heart of grace and made a clean breast of it.
That there was a secret in the man's life I feel convinced; but that conviction goes very little way towards proving any one point of the smallest value to George Sheldon.
I transcribe an extract from each of the two important letters; the first written a month before Matthew's death, the second a fortnight after that event.
"And indeed, honour'd sir, I have of late suffered much uneasinesse of speritt concerning my husband.

Those fits of ye mopes of w'h I informed you some time back have again come upon him.