6/18 It was always worse towards evening--an agony of longing, regret, fury, vague jealousy and desire. So many people in the world, like stars in the sky--why want the one star only? He wished he wasn't going to dine with that young man tonight. Aylmer was the most genial and sociable of men; he usually disliked being alone; yet just now being with people bored him; it seemed an interruption. He was going through a crisis. |