I was allowed one sweet half hour of freedom, then I was detained to await the action of the grand jury, and so was Arthur.
When I was informed of this latter fact, I made a solemn vow to myself.
It was this: If it falls to my lot to be indicted for this murderous offence, I will continue to keep my own counsel, as I have already done, in face of lesser provocation and at less dangerous risk.

But, if I escape and a true bill should be found against Arthur, then will I follow my better instinct, and reveal what I have hitherto kept concealed, even if the torment of the betrayal drive me to self-destruction afterwards.
For I no longer cherished the smallest doubt, that to Carmel's sudden rage and to that alone, the death of Adelaide was due.
My reason for this change from troubled to absolute conviction can be easily explained.

It dated from the inquest, and will best appear in the relation of an interview I held with my attorney, Charles Clifton, very soon after my second incarceration.
We had discussed the situation till there seemed to be nothing left to discuss.

I understood him, and he thought he understood me.

He believed Arthur guilty, and credited me with the same convictions.