Thus only could he explain my inconceivable reticence on certain points he was very well assured I could make clear if I would.

That he was not the only man who had drawn these same conclusions from my attitude both before and during the inquest, troubled me greatly and deeply disturbed my conscience, but I could indulge in no protests--or, rather would indulge in no protests--as yet.

There was an unsolved doubt connected with some facts which had come out at the inquest--or perhaps, I should call it a circumstance not as yet fully explained--which disturbed me more than did my conscience, and upon this circumstance I must have light before I let my counsel leave me.
I introduced the topic thus: "You remember the detached sentences taken down by the nurse during the period of Carmel's unconsciousness.

They were regarded as senseless ravings, and such they doubtless were; but there was one of them which attracted my attention, and of which I should like an explanation.

I wish I had that woman's little book here; I should like to read for myself those wandering utterances." "You can," was the unexpected and welcome reply.