I felt not only a desire to be made willing to be sent, but also a desire to be prepared.
A few days after noting this impression he thus communes with himself on this topic, which now began to absorb the greater portion of his thoughts.
12 _mo_.

3, _First-day_ .-- As I walked alone to the meeting this morning, I thought within myself, What can be the cause that I so often feel drawn in spirit towards the land of ----?
My thoughts have now for a long time past so frequently and so involuntarily revolved on the subject that I begin to be very jealous over them, and to query whether it is the workings of self-imaginations.

If this is the case, O that I may be relieved from them.

But however unaccountable my feelings may be, a secret love towards some unknown souls in -- -- is so strong at times, that if I had wings I should for my own inward peace visit them in body as I now do in spirit.

It seems as if my spiritual eye saw in those parts what we may call a seed (the seed of the kingdom sown in the heart) that wants to take root downwards and spring upwards, but which is almost choked with the tares of superstition.