If the bag had been stuffed full of the most gorgeous jewels in the world, at that moment I shouldn't have been interested in the least.

I saw Lisa give a little sidelong peep up at me, to see if I were watching; but when she found me looking entirely indifferent, she tied up the bag again and stowed it away in one of the deep pockets of her travelling cloak.
I was afraid that, when we'd arrived at the hotel and gone up to our rooms Lisa might want to stop with me, and be vexed when I turned her out, as I felt I must do.

But she seemed to have lost interest in me and my affairs, now that all doubt was settled.

She didn't even wish to talk over what had happened; but when I bade her good-night, simply said, "good-night" in return, and let me shut the door between the rooms.
"I suppose," I thought, "that the best thing I shall have to hope for after this, until I grow quite old, is to sleep, and be happy in my dreams." But though I tried hard to put away thoughts of all kinds, and fall asleep, I couldn't.

My eyes would not stay closed for more than a minute at a time; and always I found myself staring at the window, hour after hour, hoping for the light..