You can see from this how deeply I felt about the thing.

I suppose I really never could have done this.

At the last moment, I should have found it impossible to array myself against you in any such public way; but, oh, my darling, I should always have felt as if I helped steal the money, if I kept quiet about it.

You see I use a past tense already, I feel so certain that you will give it up now.

Dear, dear Stephen, you will never be sorry: as soon as it is done, you will be glad.