That's the only word.

Perhaps it's hateful of me, but I cannot help it--and I wish you wouldn't make me own it to you, for it's humiliating! I'd like him, if I could, for your sake.
But you must take the wish for the deed.' 'That's better than nothing!' Lady Maud seemed to be trying to laugh a little, but it was with an effort and there was no ripple in her voice.

'You have something on your mind, too,' she went on, to change the subject.

'Is anything troubling you ?' 'Only the same old question.

It's not worth mentioning!' 'To marry, or not to marry ?' 'Yes.