So far all had happened as I planned, but I seemed to have lost my nerve, and I could not believe in my rescue at the Letaba, while I thought of Inanda's Kraal with sheer horror.

Last night I had looked into the heart of darkness, and the sight had terrified me.

What part should I play in the great purification?
Most likely that of the Biblical scapegoat.

But the dolour of my mind was surpassed by the discomfort of my body.

I was broken with pains and weariness, and I had a desperate headache.