I did not myself fully understand my state, nor know what it was to lead to.

In my soul I accepted my different sufferings, but in my body it was my duty to strive against them.

I had given myself wholly and entirely to my Heavenly Spouse, and his holy will was being accomplished in me; but I was living on earth, where I was not to rebel against earthly wisdom and earthly prescriptions.

Even had I fully comprehended my state, and had both time and power to explain it, there was no one near who would have been able to understand me.

A doctor would simply have concluded that I was entirely mad, and would have increased his expensive and painful remedies tenfold.