22/41 Oh, I wish he would cease tormenting me with letters for money? I must send away half the servants and shut up part of the house; or let it off. I can never submit to do that--yet how are we to get on? John gambles dreadfully, and always loses--poor boy! He is beset by sharpers: John is sunk and degraded--his look is frightful--I feel ashamed for him when I see him." She was getting much excited. "I think I had better leave her now," said I to Bessie, who stood on the other side of the bed. |