"Let me show you how it stands.

Look me in the eye, and you'll see that I don't lie.

It's this Way.

I had met Edi--Miss Calder that is--before I came that morning, and there were things which made me look upon her as free; and, thinking that, I let my mind dwell on her.

Then you said she wasn't free, but was promised to you, and that was the worst knock I've had for a time.
It clean put me off, and I made a fool of myself for some days, and it's a mercy I'm not in Berwick gaol.