was.

I am telling you the entire truth: if you could know what it has cost me to avoid you!...
"In the mornings, on arising in the room in my hotel, my first motion was to look through the curtains in order to convince myself that you were waiting for me in the street.

'There is my devoted: there is my sweetheart!' Perhaps you had slept badly thinking about me, while I was feeling my soul reborn within me, the soul of a girl of twenty, enthusiastic and artless....

My first impulse was to come down and join you, going with you along the gulf shores like two lovers out of a novel.

Then reflection would come to my rescue.