I wish things had happened otherwise.

What is it Lady Macbeth says?
'Naught's had, all's spent, when our desire is got without content.' I wonder whether the fulfilment of one's heart's desire ever does bring perfect contentment?
I think not.

There is always something wanting.

And if a man comes by his wish basely, there is a taint of poison in the wine of life that neutralizes all its sweetness.".