You know what Visitacion is to me, and most certainly you are aware of what those wretches say about her.

Do not play the fool; everyone inside and outside the Cathedral listens to these calumnies and believes them.
You are the only one who does not credit them because you know the truth.

But ay! the truth cannot be told, I cannot proclaim it, these robes forbid me." And he seized a handful of his cassock with his clenched fingers as if he would rend it.
A long silence followed.

Don Sebastian looked fixedly at the ground, clutching with his hands as though he were trying to grasp invisible enemies; every now and then he felt a stab of pain and sighed uneasily.
"Why do you think about these things ?" said the gardener's widow; "they only make you ill, and you ought not to have disturbed yourself to come and see me, you would have done better to remain in the palace." "No, you distract my mind from them, it is a great comfort to tell you of my troubles.

Up there I feel in despair, and have to exert all my self-command to suppress my anger.