My knowledge stood in the way of my salvation, and I must be that odious thing--a superior wife--or stop my progress, for to be and appear were the same thing.

I must be the mate of the man I had chosen; and if he would not come to my level, I must go to his.

So I gave up study, and for years did not read one page in any book save the Bible.

My religions convictions I could not change, but all other differences should disappear.
Mother moved to the city in the spring of 1838, and my health was rapidly failing.

I had rebelled against my mother-in-law, returned her supplies, and refused to receive anything from her.