Know Christ and judge religions by Him; don't judge Him by religions, and then complain because they find yourself looking at Him through a blood-coloured glass." "I am saturating myself with Maurice, who is the antidote given by God to this age against all dreary doublings and temptings of the devil to despair." Many a one, in this age of controversy over all things once held sacred, has found peace and new light on this line of thought, and has succeeded in thus reconciling theological doctrines with the demands of the conscience for love and justice in a world made by a just and loving God.

I could not do so.

The awakening to what the world was, to the facts of human misery, to the ruthless tramp of nature and of events over the human heart, making no difference between innocent and guilty--the shock had been too great for the equilibrium to be restored by arguments that appealed to the emotions and left the intellect unconvinced.

Months of this long-drawn-out mental anguish wrought their natural effects on physical health, and at last I broke down completely, and lay for weeks helpless and prostrate, in raging and unceasing head-pain, unable to sleep, unable to bear the light, lying like a log on the bed, not unconscious, but indifferent to everything, consciousness centred, as it were, in the ceaseless pain.

The doctor tried every form of relief, but, entrenched in its citadel, the pain defied his puny efforts.