I did not dare to move till after I had heard both carriages drive off, and all voices die away in the distance.
Bettina came to the door, and was sent away with thanks.

Then I began to dress myself with very trembling hands.

This was new work to me, this horrible deception.

But all remorse for that, was swallowed up in the one engrossing thought and desire which had usurped my soul for the days just passed.
It was a full half-hour before I was ready, my hands shook so unaccountably, and I could scarcely find the things I wanted to put on.
When I went to the door I could hardly turn the key, I felt so weak, and I stood in the passage many minutes before I dared go on.

If any one had appeared or spoken to me, I am quite sure I should have fainted, my nerves were in such a shaken state..