That's yourself.
You know it's got to come.

We've all got to go out at that gate," and I moaned, and turned my face away.
"Let me call Mr.Richard," said Bettina, very much afraid.

I would have given all the world to have seen Richard then; but I knew it was impossible, and I said, No, it would soon be morning.
Long before morning, I heard Richard up and walking about the house.

We were to leave the house at half-past four.

By four, all the trunks, and shawls, and packages, were strapped and ready, and I was sitting dressed, and waiting by the window.
Bettina liked very much better to pack trunks, and put rooms in order, than to sit still and hold a person's hot hands, in the middle of the night, and have dreadful questions asked her; and she had been very active and efficient.