When she is with me, there are moments when she repels me.
We discovered each other in the holidays.

The days when we shall see each other again before we die--we could count them--if we dared.
To die! The idea of death is decidedly the most important of all ideas.

I should die some day.

Had I ever thought of it?
I reflected.
No, I had never thought of it.

I could not.