There are moments when this troubles me, when I reflect that with me a line will end which has lasted since the beginning of humanity.
Was I happy?
Yes, I had nothing to mourn or regret, I had no complicated desires.

Therefore, I was happy.

I remembered that since my childhood I had had spiritual illuminations, mystical emotions, a morbid fondness for shutting myself up face to face with my past.

I had attributed exceptional importance to myself and had come to think that I was more than other people.

But this had gradually become submerged in the positive nothingness of every day.
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