"I will go." The determination cost me something.

Dismayed by the extent of my loss, racked with headache, languid, pale, and full of remorse for last night's folly, it needed but this humiliation to complete my misery.
What! appear before my instructor for the first time with such a tale! I could have bitten my lips through with vexation.
The cab was called.

I saw, but would not see, the winks and nods exchanged behind my back by the grinning waiters.

I flung myself into the vehicle, and soon was once more rattling through the noisy streets.
But those brilliant streets had now lost all their charm for me.

I admired nothing, saw nothing, heard nothing, on the way.