The thought of it even was not bearable.

She could not stand thinking of it.

Therefore Mrs Verloc formed the resolution to go at once and throw herself into the river off one of the bridges.
This time she managed to refasten her veil.

With her face as if masked, all black from head to foot except for some flowers in her hat, she looked up mechanically at the clock.

She thought it must have stopped.
She could not believe that only two minutes had passed since she had looked at it last.