She must have found many thorns in her path, for, although she had attained her heart's desire, and was now mistress of Crown Anstey, she was shunned and disliked by all the neighborhood.
"An adventuress," they called her, and as such refused to receive her into their society.

Perhaps she had foreseen this when she wished to marry me.
By Sir John's influence, the post of secretary was found for me with an English nobleman residing in Paris.

I was to live in the house; my duties were sufficiently onerous, and I was to receive a salary of one hundred and fifty pounds per annum; so that, after all, I was better off than I had once expected to be.
I bade farewell to Agatha, to Clare, to my kind friends Sir John and Lady Thesiger.

God knew the grief that filled my heart; I cannot describe it.
On my road to the station I met the Crown Anstey carriage.

Mrs Trevelyan bowed to me from it.