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Miss Bretherton

CHAPTER V
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'I never felt anything but the warmest admiration for your courage, your work, your womanly goodness and sweetness.' 'Yes,' she said, rising and holding out her hand half-unconsciously for her cloak, which she put round her as though the wood had suddenly grown cold; 'admiration for me as a woman, contempt for me as an artist! There's the whole bare truth.

Does it hold my future in it, I wonder?
Is there nothing in me but this beauty that people talk of, and which I sometimes _hate_ ?' She swept her hair back from her forehead with a fierce dramatic gesture.
It was as though the self in her was rising up and asserting itself against the judgment which had been passed upon it, as if some hidden force hardly suspected even by herself were beating against its bars.
Kendal watched her in helpless silence.

'Tell me,' she said, fixing her deep hazel eyes upon him, 'you owe it me--you have given me so much pain.
No, no; you did not mean it.

But tell me, and tell me from the bottom of your heart--that is, if you are interested enough in me--what is it I want?
What is it that seems to be threatening me with failure as an artist?
I work all day long, my work is never out of my head; it seems to pursue me all night.

But the more I struggle with it the less successful I seem even to myself.' Her look was haunting: there was despair and there was hope in it.


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