I was determined to make him show me what he felt.

That London season was sometimes terrible to me.

I seemed to myself to be living in two worlds--one a world in which there was always a sea of faces opposite to me, or crowds about me, and a praise ringing in my ears which was enough to turn anybody's head, but which after a while repelled me as if there was something humiliating in it; and then, on the other side, a little inner world of people I cared for and respected, who looked at me kindly, and thought for me, but to whom as an actress I was just of no account at all! It was your brother who first roused that sense in me; it was so strange and painful, for how could I help at first believing in all the hubbub and the applause ?" '"Poor child!" I said, reaching out my hand for one of hers.

"Did Eustace make himself disagreeable to you ?" '"It was more, I think," she answered, as if reflecting, "the standard he always seemed to carry about with him than anything connected with my own work.

At least, of course, I mean before that Nuneham day.