I can't explain it, but I always had a feeling if I was away when they came and let my body out of the jacket that I couldn't get back into my body again.

I mean that my body would be dead for keeps.

And I didn't want it to be dead.

I didn't want to give Captain Jamie and the rest that satisfaction.

But I tell you, Darrell, if you can turn the trick you can laugh at the Warden.