77/81 Apart from his genius and his training, he was a country gentleman, and felt most at home when he was out of doors. We men are but a sorry part of the creation. Now and then there comes to us a breath out of another order of things; a sudden perception--coming we cannot tell how--of the artificial and contemptible existence we are all living; a longing to be out of it and have done with it--by a pistol-shot if nothing else will do. I continually wonder at myself for remaining in London when I can go where I please, and take with me all the occupations I am fit for. If we did not ourselves share in the passions and follies that are working round us we should not be touched by them. |