First--about my loving anybody.

I never have; I have on several occasions been prepared to bestow heart and hand--been capable of doing it--and something happened every time.

On one of these receptive occasions the thing that happened put me permanently out of business.

I'll tell you about that later.
"What I want to say is that the reason I don't love you is not because I can't, but because I won't! You don't understand that.
Let me try to explain.

I've always had the capacity for really loving some woman.