Do you want to learn what it was?
It was this.

In you, hate was always stronger than love.

Your hatred[53] of your father was of such stature that it entirely outstripped, overgrew, and overshadowed your love of me.

There was no struggle between them at all, or but little; of such dimensions was your hatred and of such monstrous growth.

You did not realise that there was no room for both passions in the same soul: they cannot live together in that fair carven house.