Did He not speak of a cock at supper?
"And another will deny me this night just before cock-crow." In a flash the old disciple saw what he had done.

From terror that he, too, would be seized, he had lied about his Master, about Him who had been everything to him--everything--everything.

Now in His need they had left Him alone, had not even had the courage to acknowledge themselves His supporters.

"Oh, Simon!" he said to himself, "you should have stayed by your lake instead of playing at being the chosen of God.

He gave me His Kingdom of Heaven and this is how I requite Him!" His life was now so broken that he crept out into the desert.