Do you know that when I waken in the morning, Mary, when it's quite early and the birds are just shouting outside and everything seems just shouting for joy--even the trees and things we can't really hear--I feel as if I must jump out of bed and shout myself.

And if I did it, just think what would happen!" Mary giggled inordinately.
"The nurse would come running and Mrs.Medlock would come running and they would be sure you had gone crazy and they'd send for the doctor," she said.
Colin giggled himself.

He could see how they would all look--how horrified by his outbreak and how amazed to see him standing upright.
"I wish my father would come home," he said.

"I want to tell him myself.
I'm always thinking about it--but we couldn't go on like this much longer.

I can't stand lying still and pretending, and besides I look too different.