"Think of my position.

How can I live, knowing what I know--and knowing no more?
I would rather hear the most horrible thing you can tell me than be condemned (as I am now) to perpetual misgiving and perpetual suspense.

I love my husband with all my heart; but I cannot live with him on these terms: the misery of it would drive me mad.

I am only a woman, Major.

I can only throw myself on your kindness.