I mean to tell the truth without shrinking; but I may at least consult my own feelings by dwelling on certain particulars as briefly as I can.

I shall describe my conduct toward the two men who courted me in the plainest terms, if I say that I distinguished neither of them.
Innocently and stupidly I encouraged them both.
In books, women are generally represented as knowing their own minds in matters which relate to love and marriage.

This is not my experience of myself.

Day followed day; and, ridiculous as it may appear, I could not decide which of my two admirers I liked best! Captain Stanwick was, at first, the man of my choice.

While he kept his temper under control, h e charmed me.