Instead of being on the way of goodness, I am just finding out the wickedness of my nature, its crookedness, its impurity, its darkness.

I want deep humility and forgetfulness of self.

I am just emerging out of gross darkness and my sight is but dim, so that my iniquities are not wholly plain to my vision.
"At present I feel as if a week of quiet silence would be the means of opening more deeply the still flowing fountains of divine life.

I would cut off all relations but that of my soul with the Spirit--all others seem intrusions, worldly, frivolous.

The inpouring of the Spirit is checked by so much attention to other than divine things.
In the bustle and noisy confusion its voice is unheard.
"I feel that one of my greatest weaknesses, because it leads me to so much sin, is my social disposition.