I hope that God will give me strength to continue." "October 18 .-- I feel this afternoon a deep want in my soul unsatisfied by my circumstances here, the same as I experienced last winter when I was led from this place.

It is at the very depth of my being.

Ah, it is deeply stirred! Oh, could I utter the aching void I feel within! Could I know what would fill it! Alas! nothing that can be said, no, nothing, can touch the aching spot.

In silence I must remain and let it ache.

I would cover myself with darkness and hide my face from the light.