What the result will be this time I cannot tell; but if I did know, I would not wait, as I did then, until it came on me with such power as to be torturing in the extreme.

Ah, what nervous strength and energy I feel at such times! If I speak of it to my brothers, they cannot understand me, never having had the same experience.

My timidity, which does not wish to be thought of as desiring anything extra on account of my life, makes me bear it until it is unendurable.

Hence I am silent so long as it does not speak for itself, which extremity might be prevented were circumstances other than they are.

Since they are not, let it be borne with, say strength and resignation united with hope.
'Tis this that is fabled in Prometheus and Laocooen--and how well fabled, too." It is significant that after every extraordinary disturbance, such as the above, he experienced the impulse to study the credentials of claimants in the outer religious world, the envoys of the Deity to man; and this especially concerning the Catholic Church.