Yet to have backed out would have been one way of losing her for ever.

Besides, it was not the first time I had run counter to the law, I who came of a lawless stock; but it would be the first time I had deserted a comrade or broken faith with one.

I would do neither.

In for a penny, in for a pound.
"But before my God I never meant it to turn out as it did; though I admit and have always admitted that my moral responsibility is but little if any the less on that account.

Yet I was never a consenting party to wholesale murder, whatever else I was.