For the payment of the former, and the cancelling of the latter, I had relied upon the expeditious return or the demonstrated loss of the vessel.

Neither of these events had taken place.
"My cares were augmented from another quarter.

My companion's situation now appeared to be such as, if our intercourse had been sanctified by wedlock, would have been regarded with delight.

As it was, no symptoms were equally to be deplored.

Consequences, as long as they were involved in uncertainty, were extenuated or overlooked; but now, when they became apparent and inevitable, were fertile of distress and upbraiding.
"Indefinable fears, and a desire to monopolize all the meditations and affections of this being, had induced me to perpetuate her ignorance of any but her native language, and debar her from all intercourse with the world.