I daresay I am going to hell, but if I do I don't care.
I don't care where I go so long as it is somewhere where there aren't any more husbands, and housekeeping, and home, weary, weary home, and complaints about food.

I don't want ever to see anything again that I have known here.

I am so tired of everything.

I am tired to death." * * * * * Poor mother and poor daughter.
Who shall say what Magdalen's thoughts were as she supported her mother's feeble steps down to the grave.

Perhaps she learned at seventeen what most of us only learn late, so late, when life is half over.
Bitterness, humiliation, the passionate despair of the heart which has given all and has received nothing,--these belong not to the armed band of Love's pilgrims, though they dog his caravan across the desert.
These are only the vultures and jackal prowlers in Love's wake, ready to pounce on the faint hearted pilgrim who through weakness falls into the rear, where fang and talon lie in wait to swoop down and rend him.
If we adventure to be one of Love's pilgrims we must needs be long suffering and meek, if we are to win safe with him across the desert, and see at last his holy city.
* * * * * Tears welled up into Magdalen's eyes as one piteous scene after another came back to her, enacted in this very room.
Poor little mother, who had seemed to Magdalen then so old and forlorn, who, when she died, had only been a year or two older than Magdalen herself was now.
And poor little wavering life sobbing in the room at the end of the passage over some mysterious trouble.
The elder Fay lived on in the younger Fay.