Gradually I became convinced that my brother was indeed disloyal to his country, to his name, to us all.

It was at that tea time you have mentioned when I finally made up my mind.

I had already bought a revolver; and, with it in my pocket, I went to the Savoy for dinner." He rose and paced the floor.
"I left the Savoy early and went to Stephen's rooms.

I was resolved to have it out with him, to put the matter to him bluntly; and if he had no explanation to give me I intended to kill him then and there.

So, you see, I was guilty in intention if not in reality.