I did not, as I had done before, lay plans, say that this-and-this would be so if I did this-and-this, I did not consciously try to influence or direct her.

I felt no definite sensual attraction, did not say, as I had always done with other women, 'It is the hair, the eyes, the mouth.' If I thought at all it was only 'This is better than anything that I have known before; I had never dreamt of anything like this.' "After I had left her that night I did not walk the streets, nor drink, nor find companions.

I went home and slept the soundest sleep of my life.

In the morning I knew tranquillity for the first time in all my days.

I did not, as I had done after many earlier first meetings, hasten to see my friend.